I know different trans people handle this in different ways but I'm like... a fan of referencing my child self with gender neutral terms. I don't think I had a gender as a child and I only kinda have a sorta one now? like I'm genderflux in a way that male genderness started to pop up more after puberty so gender is there... sometimes when it feels like it.

Somewhat related I wish my gender wasn't weird in ways I can't really explain to cis people ;-;