🧁Grendel🎈 @Grendel@plush.city

Grendel here, known mostly for being a very large rodent and other times as a very large horse named Blithe. Setting up here in case things ever go bad on other social medial platforms. Will probably spend most of my time writing day to day thoughts and/or kinky ideas that mostly revolve around expansion or whatever I feel cozy posting publicly.

Tired and full of regrets

That time of year where I always wake up to seeing red in my snot in the morning and then wondering if I really should start sleeping with a humidifier on every night.

I really need to start buying weed again.

Been feeling weird anxiety this whole weekend, and if the news wasn't enough to make that worse, it's been the ongoing issues with mental wellness falling apart in the family that's already making a member who's barely into elementary school go over the edge constantly even after so many sacrifices.

I wanna play a game of Lancer so baaaaaaaaaaaad.

Of course as soon as I have nothing in front of me I’m back to hating myself a lot.

Sometimes like today I really just want to know what I actually want to be on the digital space.

I feel like I'm running in circles with my own ideas and never make a meaningful effort to just have -something- I can feel okay with.

Synths and Exos are great ngl.

Having a very "I really wanna rebrand myself" kinds of mindset today.

Doesn’t help I keep feeling massively detached from my usual servers.

Wondering if I just don’t know how to talk with people anymore.

Tempting to just ghost all weekend.

Well I’m in bed but my brain is stuck on high alert after having to sit through a very stressful 4 hour call with a client where I could barely get a word in.

I know somethings going to happen on the weekend and it’s going to drag me in and I can’t get over it.

Not even lunch yet and I'm feeling exhausted mentally here.

Sure not feelin it tonight

Trying real, real hard to not end up in a bidding war.

Boy howdy I got zero drive to work today.